Every long lost dream led me to where you are, Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars, Pointing me on my way into your loving arms. This much I know is true...That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you....

So. I'm as lame as they come. I don't know why I would be able to say goodbye to Vin like any normal person could. Like a person who is going away for 5 days. Not 5 wks, 5 months or 5 years. 5 days. I'l be back Wed at 530 pm. For goodness sake.

I woke up with him this morning while he got ready for work. And I gave him a hug. He looked at me, told me to have fun and he loved me. The waterworks started. Hell, I want to cry just typing this. We haven't spent a night apart in years. Literally. Years. So, of course. I cried. I hugged him tight and cried. ok. now you are all shaking your heads telling me I need to get a life that is not so entangled/dependent on my husbands. so much so that I cry when leaving him for 5 days. Well, we do have our separate lives during the day. He goes to work, I go to school. He plays golf and soccer with his friends (he's joining an indoor soccer league), and I go to Jami's and the bounce house. Occasionally a game night with the girls from school. We do our own thing during the day, but at night we always sleep in the same bed.

I am bringing my teddy bear (October) that I sleep with every night. Yes, I still sleep with a teddy bear. Vin got it for me, shortly after we were married, I believe. It's a build a bear. I built it. haha. He even sprayed it with his cologne. Yes. I am extremely lame. haha.

I'd like to think I won't cry when saying good bye to the girls, but I will. In front of my parents. I will try really hard not to. I let them have cupcakes for breakfast. haha. I have only been away from Madalyn for 3 nights when she was 2 months old and we had to go to NC for Child Custody for Jarin. Gracie has left me for longer periods of time periodically, between staying at Junes and at my Mom's and with Grandma Laurie, before she died.

I just emailed Vinny. yeah. I am really lame.

I am listening to Kate Voegels Hallelujah. I love that song, and Jami introduced me to the version by her.

I am introducing the Rugrats to the girls. haha. They are watching season 1 ep 1 right now. Tommy's first Birthday. haha. I've seen this one, before. haha. pathetic that I remember that i've seen it.

Ren and stimpy and Ahhh real monsters is on watch instantly on the xbox. haha. I will be watching those when I get back. I wonder if cow and chicken are. I wonder if I will find them as amusing as I did when I was a kid. lol.

My parents will be here in 2 hours and 15 minutes. sigh.

I uploaded my new favorite songs onto my mp3 player.

Gracie is fascinated by Rug rats. haha.

Grandma June just called me, to wish me a safe trip. aw. she is such a sweet woman. I forget that she is Jordan's grandma. haha. I talk to her like everyday.

Peter called me yesterday to wish me a safe and fun trip. He randomly calls me to talk, or whatever. He is a good guy. Has a new girlfriend. I hope she isn't crazy like Alicia turned out to be. haha.

Reagan, Reagan, Reagan....sigh.
Mom has to drive to watertown to get her. She was camping with her bf and their family (Mr. Mahan's family--for all you from Hannibal), but they called mom last night and they wanted my parents to drive all the way up there (5 hours) to get her, this morning. But, with three girls, that just wasn't going to happen, so mom is meeting them at watertown to pick up Reagan. I wonder what she did. sigh.

My dad must be pretty excited. He called me now, talking about our seats and he is changing them so we can get good seats or whatever. lol.

1 hour and 55 minutes til my parents get here.

My hips hurt. thanks Vin. I am going to bring lots of advil. altho that doesn't really help much. They didn't bother me to much on the long drive up to camp, so hopefully they won't bother me to much on the 9 hour flight from JFK to Nice.

Don't wake me cuz I'm dreaming of Angels on the Moon where everyone you know, never leaves to soon.

I love that song, also. A lot.

This is to one last day in the shadows, and to know a brother's love.

Chris' Friend in his troop.

This is a friend of my brother's that was injured while they were out, my brother took care of him in the field seconds after he was injured. The soldier had a bka (below knee amputation) and lost his thumb. I don't know how my brother does it.

I am getting really nervous/excited to leave. I have never been on a plane for that long. I have flown back from FL on a plane, and then to and from Fl again. That was all. like the longest stretch was 3 hours or something like that from SC to NY, and NY to SC.

Madalyn is so funny. My purse is sitting next to me on the floor, because Madalyn kept getting into it, and I saw her try to inconspicuously bend down and take something outta my purse. She then put her hands behind her back and edged away from me with her back to the wall. I was like "madalyn, what's behind ur back?" "nahee" she replies. haha. yeah. right. she handed it over. It was my lotion I keep in my purse. haha. She loves lotions, creams, ointments, everything. But then she gets them on her hands and flips out. lol. she is so weird about having things on her hands, or being dirty.

At camp she was literally COVERED in dirt and ice cream, and she comes up to me and point to some little spot on her belly, when the rest of her belly and body are covered in crap. haha.

I am all packed. I over packed. I figured since I don;t know what people where there, I will bring everything. haha. I packed a bunch of shirts, ranging from the SU shirt I am wearing now, to tank tops, halter tops, and 'nicer' shirts that I got at JCP the other day. I also packed 2 pairs of shorts, 2 capri's, 2 lounge shorts to wear over my suit when we are at the pool and the regatta, and a pair of jeans. Also my black sundress type thingy, and the red dress I bought the other day.

T minus 3.5 hours til take off and t minus 1.5 hours til mom and dad pick me up.

They are picking me up at 1030, we are dropping my car off around the corner at the shop for the inspection, and then driving the 7 minutes to the airport. We are getting there earlier than dad normally does when he flies because the flight is overbooked, and we don't want to get bumped (obviously) altho we do have leway because we have 4 hours in between flights at JFK.

Dad is definatly excited. His status on fb says "back to the airport, but somewhere fun this time." lol. We are going to have so much fun. My dad and I get along so wonderfully, and have fun in general, so a resort in Monaco will def. be fun! Plus, my dad is a pro at traveling. so that makes it easier to fly and go to weird airports.

Madalyn just got frosting on her thumb (from gracie's cupcake) so she is running around babbling in a highpitched voice looking for a napkin.

she is now getting into Gracie's gum, pretending I can't see her. And gracie just took off after her, and now she is screeching and chasing Gracelyn trying to get it going "NO acie. NO. NO" and giving her the evil look . oh boy. I will not miss this part. but now she is fine and is brushing her hair with my brush. lol.

Gracelyn is already driving me nuts. geez. she keeps jumping on the couch. Hello. we don't do that. But she is excited to be going to stay with Karina for a long time. haha.

ok. Until tomorrow <3 or the next day. I have no idea when I will be back on here <3