her noodle necklace broke, so we improvised and turned it into a headband!

i passed the math. wooot.

worked with a Code B and Code Blue. Had a good learning experence.

so far, so good. I like the ED. Everyone is really nice and helpful.

I looovvvee this cool night weather! Sleeping with the window wide open!

I rocked the socks off that math test!

I hope....

I got the same answers as most of the people I talked to. Which could be great....or mean we all are stupid.

Unless, of course, I labled something wrong....then I would have to redo the whole damn thing. Sigh.


I go to the ED department tomorrow...so no clinical paperwork! Except for a worksheet thingy that tells me to answer the questions using "chapter 12: emergency and mass casuality nursing". Ok. That chapter twelve does not exsist in any of my books. I went to the library, there are no books with that title, or chapter. Oddly enough tho, I googled that phrase...and there are like 3 pp's from college's across the states, that have that exact title. "chapter 12" included. hmmm....

time to send out an email to my instructor, to figure out what I am supposed to use. Or else, I am resorting to the world of google.

annnnnnddd....my instructor, like all the previous ones, told me that I need to slow down in clinical, because I am missing details. sigh. It's because I am just "boom booom boom. mission complete" I just want to get everything done so I can move onto the next. ha. Guess I should slow down a little. she told me I am fully capable and am going to make a good nurse, but not organized (no crap) and I tend to miss little details. sigh.

who cares about details? geez. I get it and all, but if my pt. is still breathing at the end of the day, I consider that a successful day. ha. Let's hope you never have to be my pt. haha.

sigh

I go to the ED Thurs and Fri for my 'outside experience'. So, this week should be of zero stress. after, that is, my math exam tomorrow. Which, I should very well be studying at this very moment. We have to get a 100. Yes. 100. which makes sense. Because if you make a med error, you can kill the poor unsuspecting patient. We get 3 tries. It normally takes me one. Just for the fact that I do some stupid non lethal mistake, such as rounding. blah. Now we are doing crazy 5 step medication problems that involve conversions and rounding and mcg/kg/min and finding the rates, and I stress about it and make it much harder than it is, because I can do all of those things. Seperately. But put 5 steps into a math problem, and I am running screaming.

I got an 80 on my first test. I am embarrassed to even say that. Actually. It was a 79.67. I am mortified. Completely mortified. They were all stupid answers that I selected. Like, I confused MS with MG, even tho I know very well the S/S of each, but when I read Multiple Scerlosis, I was thinking Myasthenia Gravis. I suck. Truly. The first 9 problems I got wrong out of the 14 that I did...was on delagation. Really. WTF?! I didn't even open that packet to study cuz I was like "well, that is commone sense", but really. Who knew a LPN can put in a catheter, but not monitor a pt's feeding with aphasia?! DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?!

Sigh. Time to study Math. I guess. Sigh. Madalyn has her weight check today, in CENTRALS SQUARE. Which is a 40 minute drive from Daycare, then to cicero, which is in the opposite direction of my house, to get my BCP, then home. yes. we will be home at the ripe old time of 6pm, prolly. sigh. It wouldn't be that late, but she needs a blood draw for her Lead test that somehow got skipped over for her 2nd birthday.

I need to go back to peds. IDK how much weight 2 year olds are supposed to gain a year. She weighed 21ish lbs at 23 months old. Now she is 23ish lbs. That doesn;t seem like enough. but, enough paranoing over her lack of weight gain. She is healthy and full of energy. Who cares is my 2 and a half year old weighs less than some 10 months old I know. haha.

madalyn and rolo

we just got in our car to leave and it just started raining. good timing or what?

she's a ghost. haha

So quiet that I finally woke up, if you're sad then it's time you woke up to.....

Ok. So. You know what I HATE?!

People that leave the person that raised them for the first 20ish years of their life. and by 'leave' I mean stop talking to. ignore. shut out of their lives.

This person was raised by her 'grandmother', but she grew up calling her 'mom' because her mother was a 14 year old, that she grew up with as a 'sister'. sounds screwy? yeah, it was a weird situation. Then, she gets married, and her husband wants her to 'reconnect' with her 'real' mom. so she does. and drops the person that raised her for 20 someodd years.

Her 'grandmother' is now heartbroken. It's been over two years since she has talked to her, and she has no idea what is going on with her, or if she's having children or anything. This person that she put her heart and soul into raising and loving, just left her.

So. Enter: Silver. I am on her fb. purely for the reason of finding out any piece of information I can pass onto her 'grandmother', to give her some peace of mind that her daughter's life is going well, and that she is happy.

This sickens me. I don't know what would possess this person to do this.

I moved out of my parents house when I was 16. I put my family thru hell. I still feel mad guilty about it, altho I am pretty sure that they have forgiven me. I was a stupid teenager that was rebelling, and now my parents are my best friends.

I think this person is being mad selfish. "mad" seems to be my word today. It's not even 0800 yet, and I already have a word of the day. ha.

Last night, I spent like an hour downloading music that I loved growing up/listened to in highschool. Like Tal Bachman's "she's so high" and Vertical Horizon "everything you want" and fastball and stuff like that.

I am lame. I love 90's music tho, what can I say?

my pen says 'beef. it's whats for dinner' haha.

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