I want to feel passion, I want to feel pain, I want to weep at the sound of your name, come make me laugh, come make me cry, just make me feel alive.

Alive- Joey Lauren Adams

One of my favorite songs, ever. From the soundtrack of "chasing amy". I have been looking for YEARS on limewire, to download it to my itunes, and I can't find it. sigh.

So. I have started watching "the L word". omg. I freakin' love that show. I freakin' love Shane's attitude, and I love Dana. She is so nieve about Lesbiens. Silly girl. haha. (Apparently I have picked up the word 'silly' from Jami, as well.)

I think Vin is going to pick me up a bottle of Red Cat tonight, altho I decided that I wasn't going to have anymore wine until Camp, because it has so many calories. Oh well. I don't have the energy to exercise and I like food to much, to do the slim fast thing. I will start it tomorrow tho. Ha. I say that every day.

So. I went to JCP today (my fave. store) and got some shorts. Size 3. not bad, but the issue was finding shorts that weren't HOOCHIE!!! (hootchie?) idk. All the shorts there coulda passed for underware! I swear!! I used to wear short short shorts when I was younger, back when I had the legs for it, but I don't any more. haha. I did find some nice shorts that were normal short length (like 2 inches from my crotch, instead of 2 cm), so that's good. haha. I don't fit into any of my other shorts cuz they are like a 1. sigh. altho they are so old, i've had them since highschool and finally out grew them this year. ha. damn nursing school.

So. I talked to my sister in law today. Not Toni. Heather. She called. it was a pleasant conversation. I almost didn't answer, but I figured i should. haha. We talked about the girls, and her school, and my school, and france, and her studying abroad in italy. She seemed genuinely nice, instead of her normal fakeness, but still. idk. She is just so 'all about her' and the fact that she wouldn't live with my brother in NC, she stayed at UNH. whatever. If it makes him happy. Altho, he is hopefully transferring to a base in R.I, so he will be closer to us.

Went to the mall today. Was in JCP for seriously like 3 minutes and Madalyn LOST her sneaker. we looked EVERYWHERE. so we went to the disney store, and I bought her cute minnie mouse flip flops, (altho she was wearing a spare pair of sandals I had with me). I love buying shoes for the girls! Or clothes. or anything. But I restrained myself. I can't help but spend a lot of money at the disney store, but I didn't. haha. Vin would of freaked. I remember for Gracie's 3rd bday party, it was Tinkerbell, and Tinkerbell was all the rage at the disney store-we spent so much money there and bought her her tinkerbell lamp and all sorts of dolls and stuff. She still has her tinkerbell lamp tho. Good. that thing was 40 bucks marked down from 80!

I really love "the l word" but it is pretty annoying because it's not on zshare, it's on either some chinese thing or megavideo, and with Megavideo you can only watch 72 minutes at a time, and then it makes you wait 54 minutes before you can watch another 72. haha. I guess since I have started this show, my book isn't going to get read except at night, when I am not to exhausted. haha.

We got our cooler. The girls are having a blast in the box.

Chris sent a letter to my parents. Said activity was picking up, and that he had been hoping he wouldn't have to do his job (which is being the medic for the marines). but, he is, from the sounds of it. But he said he is safe, and he has his gun, so not to worry, because he loves his gun. haha. and then at the end of it he said "Is reagan getting tired of riding horses? I can prolly smuggle a camel outta here". haha. I am glad he is still able to joke around. He said that he always had a 'romanticized notion of war' until now, and it has given him a whole new perspective on everything. I am sending him a package. I will put in it Crew socks, baby wipes, and baby powder (at his request) and I am also sending 'beef jerky chew', the brand I am getting is Buffalo Bills and it's supposedly rated top 4 in the US by some Hiking Group, or something. haha. He loves beef Jerky.

It is 1818. Haha. I love that I post at the same time everynight. Altho this time, Vin will be home in a few. Yay. I wonder what we are doing for dinner. Prolly Ponchitos. After today tho, we are NOT ordering out anymroe, and I am NOT drinking alcohol, until Camp. haha.

well. Goodbye my Lover, Goodbye my friend....Until Tomorrow <3