Can we pretend that airplanes In the night sky are like shooting stars...

I am about halfway thru Jodi Picoult's "house Rules". It is a great book. I have only been able to read it at night time, altho I haven't been reading even then, as much as normal, cuz Vin's been getting home so late, that by the time we get to bed it's 'late' (like 9-10).
I finished this season of Desperate Housewives, and I am caught up with Army Wives. I need a new tv show to watch. haha. I would much rather pause a tv show to yell at the kids than not be able to concentrate while reading, I've decided.

I bought the girls Toy Story 1. I don't know why since I have it downloaded on that program thingy that Thane hooked up, but I don't know how to work it. So, I am impatient. So I bought it. AND I thought it was 1&2 for 20 bucks...but it's not. It's 1 on blue ray and dvd. WTH? I don't have a blue ray player. w.e.

I am sweating profusely. I should prolly change into some shorts. haha. I've been wearing jeans all day. who knows why.

We had an earthquake apparently. I didn't notice. The last one I remember was in like 10 11 or 12th grade cuz I was living with Deb. It was in the morning and I thought the dog was like running around my room shaking my bed. He wasn't. haha.

I put soap in Gracelyn's mouth today. I told her to stop talking back. Idk if it helped. I also took away the pool. She is still being obnoxious. She is going to go play in her room like a good girl after she eats, and if she throws a fit, I am taking the tv away from her ALL day tomorrow.

We got our totes and propane tanks and batteries for camp.We got two long totes that are about 6 inches deep for bread and rolls and stuff and pots and pans (in seperate totes, of course. haha) and two smallish ones for first aid stuff, hair brushes, and crap like that.

I am pretty darn excited for camp. haha. Have I mentioned that? Saturday is Mindy's baby shower. It is pretty much just a cookout. I am excited about that, I like Mindy and Justin, but I don't know any one else. Vin will know a lot of ppl since he has been friends with Justin (shoppe) forever, and he 'dated' Mindy. (for like 2 weeks and nothing happened.) plus, it's Vin. he talks to everyone and anyone.

So. Jami was telling about her Walmart story and how she bitched until they gave her her money and then offered to pay for any bank fee's. Then I realized, I can be a bitch, but mostly, I am just a push over.
What happened is she asked them to do a split transaction, they didn't, so of course it'd screw up Jami's account, so she demanded they put it back. they couldn't so they gave it to her in cash, a 20 dollar gift card and offered to pay any fee's. I would of just said "that's ok" and left and paid the fees. Unless Vin was with me. Then he may have thrown a fit. But, I definantly would have gave in and let them screw me. I need to learn to be a bitch at the right moments. ha.

No to mention, if you go negative once, when it all finally posts, it post from greatest amount to least amount, so you end up with like 7 overdraft fees. yeah. that happened to us once. It sucked. we were negative like 800 dollars because of it. I was pissed. Ok. maybe like 300 bucks in the hole, but still. it was a lot.

Talked to Tara today. She calls me usually bi-monthly. lol. She seems to be having a good time, but I think she feels like a 'stranger in a strangeland', so after she graduates she will be moving back here to people and places she is familiar with. Sorta like my experience with Fl, except mine also involved the crazy Corkran family. haha.

Sunday, I think Jami and Thane are coming over. yay <3. Idk what to do for dinner. hmm. I'll prolly just marinade some chicken. or maybe we'll do Papa Johns. I love papa johns, and Thane's been wanting some. AND it gets delivered in, seriously, like 10 minutes cuz it's like 2 blocks away. haha. now, if only dd delivered, life would be perfect. haha.

I have like 4 months to figure out what to do with my life. ha. yeah. seriously, tho. I have to decide if I want to work at Crouse, where they will give me a sign on (not sure how big), but won't pay for me to continue my Education (for my NP, eventually) for 2 years, or work at Golisano's where Upstate will pay for me to continue school after 6 months. Idk if they ahve a sign on. So, yeah. that sounds simple, right. well, it's not. I joined nursing school with the dream of working in the NICU (Neonatal intensive care unit). I spent a day up there and LOVED it. OMG. It was like Heaven. Well, Crouse has the BEST NICU in the area and services THIRTEEN counties. Ppl come up from PA to go Crouse, and down form the canada border. If I can't get in there right away, I'd want to do L&D. which, is also at Crouse. and is the best one around, because it is connected with the NICU. So, IDK. Golisono's wouldn't be awful. If I did work there, it would have to be at Golisano's and not on another floor at Upstate. I don't like UPstate. I've done clinicals there, and I just don;t like it, it's like alien territory. Altho, I guess I would get used to it. The trauma floor, where I did clinicals would be ok. That is where all the people that get majorly hurt in accidents and stuff go. But if I do end up working for Upstate, so they can pay from my school it would have to be at Golisano's. I would love for it to be on the pediatric hem/oncology floor, but pediatric surgery would be ok. I did a rotation there, but I would LOVE to be on Pediatric Hematology/Oncology. I would. However, I hate parents. Lemme just say that. They are awful. which is why the NICU would be perfect for me. Parents are in very little doses up there. haha. So. I could work at Crouse, and just take out loans for the next two years, (or just wait a while before going back) where I REALLY want to work, or work for Upstate where I really don't want to work, but get school paid for pretty much instantly. ALso, the question is, do I WANT to go back to school right away? Yes. I do. I love school (yeah, I am lame) and I would have to go part time, cuz I would be working full time, but idk. I want to get it over and done with cuz it's a 3 year program, full time, so if I go max part time, it would still be like 5ish. So. gosh. idk. If I wait til the kids are older, it might be easier. I started Crouse at the worst time, with a 1 year old and a 3 year old. Full time school at the best nursing school around with two toddlers. ha. WTH was I thinking? Idk. But, I don't have much time left to figure it out. Maybe I will just apply everywhere and the first place to take me wins. I have a feeling that I will apply first at Crouse, cuz that is where I REALLY want to go, but then it's MORE student loans, or putting school on hold. As my dad says (alot) if you put off school you aren't likely to go back. But I proved that wrong once, I could do it twice. but, idk.

so. I told Gracelyn that if she didn't play in her room she wouldn't watch TV at ALL tomorrow. She says  "I dont want to watch tv tomorrow." so that threat didn't work.

We are reading Hop on Pop. She is doing really good. I am proud of her. She read like 3 pages (with my help, obviously) and got bored. but the words also started getting longer (house, mouse) and she's never really read before. this whole concept is new, so I understand her giving up. haha. we'll do a little everyday.

Madalyn is so cute (duh). Gracelyn has this microphone that sings a verse of "under the sea" and madalyn sorta hums along to it, and dances with it to her mouth until everytime they say 'sea' or 'me' or anythign ending in 'eee' sounds and (right on time) she goes "eeeeee". haha.

I feel like the song "everything" was wrote for me. ha. I am lame. I am pretty sure everyone thinks that. haha.

James Blunt. That is like the sound track of our relationship. I bought it when I broke up with Vin for what i thought was forever (but turned out to be 2 days, and then we got engaged. haha) because of the song 'goodbye my lover'. but, we listened to that song every single night in our studio apartment that was LITERALLY the size my living room is now. I played it because it was soothing music for Gracie, and her crib was literally a foot from our bed (with the other end against the wall) and our bed was 2 feet from the other wall (that gives you a size reference). So, all of our fights, and are 'loving' was to this cd. It doesn't surprise me now, looking back, that we fought so much, even after we were engaged. I was pregnant, home all day in a tiny tiny studio apartment, he worked all day (he was at barnes and cone) drove a 45 minute drive all day, at least, and came home to a pregnant hormonal, me, in our tiny tiny apartment. Altho, we've always fought. we are better now. thankfully. alot better. but we dont see eachother except saturday afternoons and sundays. haha. no wonder we get along. haha. but yeah, I love James blunt. I listen to him when I want to remember the beginning of our relationship and how far we have come, relationship wise, family wise, and just in general. and he is a wonderful artist.


it is 1818. The same time I posted yesterday, and Vin is not home AGAIN. haha. He hasn't been home in time for the girls to go to bed in a long time. oh well. It's money. It's wonderful over time. like 26 bucks an hour. I love time and a half. haha.

Summer Sisters. Idk where my book is, but I am sad. I hope my mom has it in the attic, but idts. Amanda asked me a question about something in the book, and I went looking for it. it's not there. We call eachoterh Vix and Cait. yeah. we were pretty lame. haha. It is a wonderful book tho, and it seemed so suited for our friendship.

ok. I guess I am going to go. My dad fb'd me a comment about rope and stuff we need for camp.

So, as James Blunt would say...'So, long, Jimmy, So long, though you only stayed a moment....' or, "Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend.". Yes. I believe I will end all my future blogs with that. haha. I am so lame. Until Tomorrow <3