As we go on, we'll remember all the times we had together

I had a nice time visiting with Kelly today. It's a shame we can't hang out more. The girls love to play together, and Madalyn and Liam are so darn cute!

I found all my old highschool year books in my parent's attic and I started reminiscing all my highschool memories. I forgot how close I had been with people. Stephanie was such a good friend, and the only person there for me thru some of the crazy hard times (outside of Tara and Amanda). It's a shame that we all grew up and went our separate ways, for the most part. I receive my monthly calls from Tara, and talk with Amanda sometimes- a lot lately cuz she is going thru a rough patch, but that's about it as far as high school friends. I still religiously read Stephanie's facebook and blog, and Alicia and I haven't spoken in months and haven't actually been friends in almost two years (she even de-friended me). I still and will prolly always have Heidi--despite the different states. altho, heidi was never a highschool friend, being two years older and from a completely different state and never going to our highschool. And now, Jami, of course, who makes life easier to tolerate, and just plain better :)

It's just crazy, how in highschool everyone is CONVINCED they are going to be with their boy/girlfriend FOREVER (my sis is going thru that stage now), and that their best friends will ALWAYS be their best friends. yeah. That rarely happens. I thought leesh and I were going to be the rare people that remain best friends (since kindergarden) thru to our adult years, but that ended when her a Peter split and she hated me for letting him live with us (should I have put my husband's best friend on the street?).
I always have Amanda. We have that sisterly love/hate relationship where we can be utterly annoyed with each other and when spending long amounts of time together, get super irritated, but know that no matter what we will always be there for each other, and it has been proven to be true. We always had our "mondays" when Deb and Jimmy would go to Pool and we would have Butter and Matt over. haha. we were sneaky little things. and of course, the summer we were 16. We had a lot of fun with Dustin and Ryan. (RIP).

side note: Madalyn just came outta the bedroom, where I just put them to bed 15 mins ago, wearing a floppy hat and dancing. as tho she isn't supposed to be sleeping. I tried to be stern and hide my smile while telling her to get in bed. haha.

Tara and I, holy crap. We ran around Oswego County like we thought we owned it, when we were teens. haha. Goodness. We got ourselves into some situations. Even after I moved back here from Fl and had Gracie, we always had somewhere to go and something to do. Like randomly go to Turning Stone for a weekend. Me her Gracie and Ryan.  Or when I randomly just packed up Gracie and I from Oswego and drove to New Hartford and stayed with her for 2 weeks.


I will never ever forget camping with Stephanie tho, or Driver's Ed, or just plain hanging out with her. Physics. ha. I gave up on that stupid class and just stopped doing anything, the tests, the homework. I quit it all. PRetty sure Ms. Burch hated me. haha. We had a lot of fun, and I could always count on her to make me smile.

ok. enough sappy highschool memory crap. Altho, I do love reminiscing. I had a lot of fun my teen years  with Stephanie, Tara, and of course, Heidi-the first person I ever got comnpletely trashed with (a thank you goes out to John Phillip's mother for buying us Rum) and did illegal substances with (Thank you Tommy, for to stupid to know we were using your pipe, or even smoking anything to begin with). haha.


altho, along with all those good high school memories, a lot of them include Jordan. From 11th grade we were friends, me him and Billy Corey in Chemistry, (once, my parents and I saw Dennis and Billy at Seabreeze, and my mom goes "why does everyone call him Billy Corey?" I was like "uhm. because that is his name." hahaha) and then all thru my senior year, him, Heidi, myself and Greg had a lot of fun at the bluffs and running around sterling all thru that spring/summer into the late hours of every single night. I didn't show up for my chem regents cuz I was to hungover to function. haha. good times. In my mind tho, when I randomly think about stuff like that. I just mentally forget the fact that Jordan was there, and only remember the good times Heidi and I had. haha. Sometimes I wish I had stayed here in NY with Heidi when she begged me not to leave (she was the smart one outta us, and saw the disaster coming), and gotten an apartment with her and never have gone to Fl with Jordan. but then I never would of had Gracelyn, or met the people I did down there, or experienced living completely free of adults at such a young age (there is a reason people have parents at the ages of 18 and 19, lemme tell you). Moving down there made me who I am today. I will never take back or regret anything I ever did, because every moment we experience makes us the people we are today.

I miss having fun and not having any responsibilities, but I would never turn back time to replace the family I have now. I have the best husband, whom I have a great relationship with, and the most beautiful (if not obnoxious and crazy) daughters ever.

well. Vin will be back soon with our Mexican. lol. That is all we eat. Altho this time it's from El Canelo's and not Ponchitos. Prolly watching some Californication. Or maybe one of the movies we got in Netflix. Prolly Cali, cuz I LOOOOVVVEEE that show.

Until Tomorrow <3