I run on Dunkin. Or coffee, in general.

....about sums it up.

Yo, I'll tell you what I want, what I really really want.

I'm a nerd. What can I say. I totally just enjoyed the rerun on the NYE program of the spice girls. And I sang along. I still know all the words to all the Spice Girls, Backstreet Boys, and N*Sync songs. If they were a pop group in the 90's, I'm there! haha.

90's music is the best. Hands down.

Madalyn Rose

My punky dancing in the food court.

hmmm. how to rotate this pic?  Ah. well. Just turn your heads.

LOVE this pic of my beautiful six year old. If only I could figure out how to rotate it?

My little Diva's. <3

Wonders if I can still txt blogger?

Viva la Vera

Who says Vera Bradley can't solve marital problems? It at least helps a little. ;-)

A child's love is unconditional.

To funny not to share.

::insert explicit words here::

Drink coffee. Do stupid things faster with more energy.

Sometimes it just frickin' hurts.

I just want to reiterate a previous post;

Why were we all in such a hurry to grow up? When did everything get so complicated?

Breast is Best.

I figured I'd jump on the band wagon, since this is something I am passionate about. Breastfeeding, pro-life, the whole shebang. 

Many of you already know where I stand on abortion. I believe it is NEVER right. Ever. Period. End of sentence. 

I also breastfed both my children. Gracelyn for not as long, since I went back to work when she was 2 weeks old, and frankly, I was young. I was single. I just didn't have the 'time'.  I breastfed Madalyn for about 16 months. I also donated my breast milk to the National Milk Bank for about a year. It was a good feeling, knowing that all I had to do was sit down and pump, (they even GIVE you a dual electric breast pump), and I would be giving many critically ill babies the chance for healthy Mama's Milk.

As far as nursing in public. Use discretion. Most mother's do. Why would they want you seeing their breast anyways? People have their panties all up in a wad at Target. It's a little ridiculous. 

All this talk about breast feeding has me wanting another one. But not enough to actually have one. If I ever have another I would want to do it like I did Madalyn; Stay home for the first year with them. So much happens in the first year, and that is crucial bonding time. I would not want to miss that. So, no where in the near future shall I be having another.

I think that is why Madalyn is my little mommy's girl. I nursed her for much longer than Gracelyn, as well as was home with her for much longer than I was with Gracelyn. I did my schooling online with Madalyn, except one night a week when she was about 10 months old, and did not leave her until she was a year old, when I started Nursing School. Gracelyn was the complete opposite. By the time she was 2 weeks old, I went back to working full time, then started school full time as well. It was just us for the first year, so thankfully we still have a special bond, obviously. But it's different than mine with Madalyn's. Or maybe that is just normal for every mother to have a different kind of mother/child bond with each child? I should ask my mom about that.  


I am sure the latter is true. Each child is different. They excel at different things. I am certain that each mother's bond is different with each child, just based on these things. 


To sum it up--being a mother is the most important responsibility in the world, and it should never be taken lightly. Breast is Best. Not that I am enforcing my beliefs on anyone, but really, it is.

run froggie, run!!!

Well, that bites.

Brutus, the 18 foot, 3 legged crocodile.

poor guy. but what a great story he can tell. If he lived?

Sometimes it lasts in love, sometimes it hurts instead.

I want to memorize everything, not forget a single moment of my life. All the little things are what your life is made of.

I have found that if you love life, life will love you back. - Arthur Rubinstein

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.

Don't make a New Years Resolution if you can't keep it.

Chances are, if you are waiting until January 1rst to start doing something, (or stop doing something), then you most likely aren't all that serious about it, to begin with.

My "New Years Resolution" starts today.

To eat healthier. To be happier. To love better. To pray more. To exercise more. To take things in stride.  To start school again.

2012

I can't believe we are nearing another ending to another year. ::rolls eyes:: How cliche that sounds.

A lot has changed since this time last year. As in, I am no longer jobless. haha. I have an excellent job that I love, and most importantly, I really love my fellow (night shift) co workers. I really got lucky with this job.

The girls are a year older and they have both grown so much. Madalyn is actually talking now. In a language that (most) people can understand! Gracelyn has learned to tie her shoes. finally. I gave her the deadline of her 6th birthday. She learned the day before she turned 6. She is also reading. Slowly, but surely, she is getting a grasp on it.

We still have the same daycare provider. Who is excellent. She is closing in the fall. My girls (and myself) will be heartbroken. I am thinking a private school is the way we are going to go. This homeschooling thing is hard, and I really don't want to go about finding a new daycare, if I kept homeschooling.

Reagan now has her permit. That is a scary thought. Jon is still a part of our family, as her boyfriend. Karina was in remission from her UC this Christmas. Grandma June is still apart of our family, and doing well. My parents are my best friends. as always.

I still love Toni. We are going out to see all our AZ family this March. We'll see how Toni and I get along out there. bahaha. Since, we tend to piss each other off when we spend physical time together. Laurie was always commenting on how much alike we are.

I'm still married.

Whiskers is still a nutjob that likes to play fetch and steal things.

Obama is still president. I still dislike him. Possibly, even more than originally.

Rolo is gone. We put her down in January. It's weird without her. This time last year she was injured, but still always tried to run and play in the snow. That crazy dog loved the snow, and playing with the girls. Madalyn was her buddy.

Other than that, not much has changed. So, really, I take back my beginning statement. Not much has changed. at all. What a boring year. We went to camp. Like always. We ordered delivery to much. like always. We spent a lot of time with my parents. like always. However, we didn't have as many bbq's this year, because I'm actually working now. Spent all summer outside with the girls. like always. I drink coffee by the gallon. Like always.

I can't complain that my life is boring. All of these "as always" things, are things we love and want to continue. Camping. Food. Spending time with family. Food and Family and Friends combined. Spending time outdoors in the nice weather with my girls. Everyone is healthy. My girls are beautiful and smart. I am close with my family. I have a good job with people I like. I have great friends. I have nothing to complain about. I love my life and the people in it. I am very fortunate.

There's no such thing as perfect people, there's no such thing as a perfect life....

A great facebook status from a co-worker.

Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.

I'm full of artificial sweetener.

I find myself choking on all my contradictions.


This is not how I imagined things would be, when I was a teen, wishfully thinking about my 'grownup' future.


Then again, is anyone's life the way they imagined it would be?

Two brownies and a peach snapple.

The only time you should be completely honest is when the paramedics ask, "what did you take?".


LOL.

Can not believe it....

My oldest baby is going to be 6 next Friday. That I can not believe. I remember the day she was born, and everything we went thru in the year afterwards, when it was just her and I, dealing with the shit from her father. I wouldn't change anything, it made me stronger in the end. She was such a good baby, adapted easily to wherever we were living, whoever was watching her while I was working/at school. Now she is going on six. Holy Crap. She has turned into such a big girl. I can not even believe it. She is doing good in the school department. I have a few days off this week, we will be playing catch up on school, until my sched changes and I have a longer stretch off of work, that will be easier for homeschooling. She is a little genius tho, and is already ahead of it all.

We could of had it all...

Spent a while going thru old pics of the girls (mostly Gracelyn), that I found on my old Myspace page. Remember when Myspace was all the rage? Then it was deadjournal/livejournal, then facebook, now google+ is coming in. sheesh. We just need something to obsess about. It works. I am apparently out of touch with my pop culture. Who knew that kid Justin Beiber was popular enough to have his own online section on Kohls.com? I am still in the days of Julia Stiles, Jennifer Aniston and Brad and Angelina Jolie.

I think I may like Two and a half men with Ashton Kutcher.

Gracelyn will be 6 on the 14th. Holy Crap.

love this song

Grey's Season Premier. Uber Excellent. My Acid Reflux is really starting to be a bother. Everything I eat makes me nauseas. Yuck. Ok. Fine. So Chips and salsa and Tacos are prolly the reason why my Reflux is acting up. That and I keep forgetting to pick up more Prevacid. So, it's on me. I admit it.

Learning Google+ Score.

We're hot, we're cold, we're up, we're down; but we're mostly cold and down. Sigh.

Charlie Sheen is a tool. That is why he was perfect for that role on Two and a half men. I think I will stick to my reruns.

On the upside; my kids are doing less arguing. On the downside; they are doing more of the "let's put our two children minds together and see what kind of trouble we can make together before Mommy finds out". I think I liked the arguing better. Also. God bless all the people who have the patience to be teachers, out there. I am on day two and I want to smack someone.