sigh

I go to the ED Thurs and Fri for my 'outside experience'. So, this week should be of zero stress. after, that is, my math exam tomorrow. Which, I should very well be studying at this very moment. We have to get a 100. Yes. 100. which makes sense. Because if you make a med error, you can kill the poor unsuspecting patient. We get 3 tries. It normally takes me one. Just for the fact that I do some stupid non lethal mistake, such as rounding. blah. Now we are doing crazy 5 step medication problems that involve conversions and rounding and mcg/kg/min and finding the rates, and I stress about it and make it much harder than it is, because I can do all of those things. Seperately. But put 5 steps into a math problem, and I am running screaming.

I got an 80 on my first test. I am embarrassed to even say that. Actually. It was a 79.67. I am mortified. Completely mortified. They were all stupid answers that I selected. Like, I confused MS with MG, even tho I know very well the S/S of each, but when I read Multiple Scerlosis, I was thinking Myasthenia Gravis. I suck. Truly. The first 9 problems I got wrong out of the 14 that I did...was on delagation. Really. WTF?! I didn't even open that packet to study cuz I was like "well, that is commone sense", but really. Who knew a LPN can put in a catheter, but not monitor a pt's feeding with aphasia?! DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?!

Sigh. Time to study Math. I guess. Sigh. Madalyn has her weight check today, in CENTRALS SQUARE. Which is a 40 minute drive from Daycare, then to cicero, which is in the opposite direction of my house, to get my BCP, then home. yes. we will be home at the ripe old time of 6pm, prolly. sigh. It wouldn't be that late, but she needs a blood draw for her Lead test that somehow got skipped over for her 2nd birthday.

I need to go back to peds. IDK how much weight 2 year olds are supposed to gain a year. She weighed 21ish lbs at 23 months old. Now she is 23ish lbs. That doesn;t seem like enough. but, enough paranoing over her lack of weight gain. She is healthy and full of energy. Who cares is my 2 and a half year old weighs less than some 10 months old I know. haha.