God knew my stubborn heart needed a soft one like my husband’s to shape mine to be more like His.

"God knew my stubborn heart needed a soft one like my husband’s to shape mine to be more like His."


I came across this quote while skimming thru blogs. I found it on Wide Open Spaces. I really like her blog, along with the others I read frequently; Apron Strings, and Bethany's Freelance Lifestyle (or something like that).


Anyways. The quote is quite fitting. I am quite stubborn and have been told I am a cold hearted BEEEEEEPPP by more than one man. That may be over reacting a little, but I tend to be not so loving, on more than a regular basis. However, the hubby is always loving. He is always willing to hug me, and to show love, even when I (feel) I don't deserve it. He has a big heart. A soft heart. Unlike the fact that sometimes I feel like mine is the size of The Grinches. 


I say things I don't mean, just because I am frustrated and angry. I blow things out of proportion, and go to bed angry. I brush him off all the time when he tries to hug me, because I am busy, or frustrated, or had a long day, or just don't feel like being hugged. I get on him about the stupidest things. I HATE that he is so obsessed about football, and will spend all day Sunday watching it, and I complain about it. I should really be thanking God that he doesn't go to the bar and spend Sunday's trashed watching football, somewhere downtown.


I should tell him I appreciate him more often. But, I don't. I should hug him and kiss him more often, and not brush him off when he comes to give me a hug--all because I am to stressed or irritable. I should show my love the way he does, but I don't. I wish I was a more loveable person. I am, when school is not in session. I need to get past the stress when I am at home, and be a loving wife. So many times Vinny tells me that I never show him love and I act like I don't love him. And I do. So much. Then I came across this quote today, and realized, that there is a reason why I ended up with Vin--a man that is so loving and puts the girls and myself before him--so that I can soften up, and become a more loving person. So that I can show my husband more often how much I love and appreciate him.